April 8, 2012
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Sometimes, I wonder…
why I write here…I rarely get comments, but it seems easier to bare my soul here, than on FB?! Weekends put me in a funk, but I now have a meditation center I can go to on Saturdays or Sundays. Will be a big help to get centered, and be with other like-minded people.
I now want to move to Tampa, Florida, as I have a friend that lives there, and another friend will be moving to Clearwater-which is nearby-in the fall! Feel as if the ocean and palms are in my blood! I yearn for the sunshine and the water. I have traveling in my blood, as well. I’ve been where I am for 14 long years-it’s past time to move on. My past haunts me here. Time to get a move-on!
Haven’t written any poetry in a long time, just haven’t felt inspired, maybe it will come back? Hope so. Have written hundreds of them. I wonder if taking Ambien at night, might be dulling my senses, or if one of my other meds might affect my writing ability? Who’s to know? I have depression, some anxiety and borderline personality disorder. Despite all this, I have faith, and try to keep up a positive outlook. I like reading TheTheologiansCafe-he is an old friend, that I have lost touch with. @TheTheologiansCafe, where are you?!!
Put up a lot of 45 singles on my FB, to keep from feeling lonely today. (Laurie J. Buell) Helped a bit, but I skipped lunch, and am now starving, so I must go…love to you that read this…<3
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I miss talking to you too. I am rarely on AIM anymore. I am not sure I even know my password and that is where we typically chatted.
@TheTheologiansCafe -
Yes, true! Do you have Yahoo Messenger, or anything else? Xanga is like a ghost town to me now…
love to my laurie, too. love right back at you. <3 you just need to give it time, people will be back here to comment and share with you. i love that you have that gypsy-soul, like i do. i want to move somewhere where it’s cold all the time. i lived in orlando and it was way too hot for me. florida is just not my thing. but that was a long time ago, and the situation was not the best, so there’s that. nova scotia is where i’m headed (in my dreams, if nothing else). to go there and live or to studland, england (a brand new place i found) will take a lot of money, and short of hitting lotto i can pretty much just forget it. besides what would i do with richard? he is a native texan and a crabby cancerian and he likes to stay in one place and by one place i mean in the chair, watching the television. i have had to make all the adventures of our time together, and now i guess i’m ready to make a few of my own and just let him be content to stay here. but i’m in dire need of ……fundage, lol. ~ love you mucho. keep me posting about the tampa thing. sarasota is nearby, beautiful i’ve heard.
@be_the_rain -
So good to hear from you! Hope you can get to Nova Scotia, or England?! I need the heat, although I’m
not too sure about the humidity. A friend that lives there is going to contact her realtor, to call me! I need low-income housing. Poor Richard, sounds like he is ‘stuck’, and a typical home-loving Cancerian. What sign are you? I’m a Sagittarian-gypsy-at-heart. Talk soon!!
I’ve not been on here much this past week, as my sister passed away suddenly. I usually try to check in pretty regularly, but this week has been kind of a nightmare.
I love Florida. Absolutely adore it. I’ve been to the Venice area and the Ft. Walton/Destin area. We even drove down to Gainsville so my youngest could see the university down there. There is nothing more soulful than the beach. Take care, dear friend.
@soonaquitter - aries – got to have my adventures, lol.
Ah yes..I remember your poems
that ambien can play with your mind a bit..some people anyway..but if you have friends there Laurie..that is a GREAT start..have them clip the classifieds for apts, etc..and get an idea…it’s something to look into…maybe you can pay them a bit to stay until you get settled if that is what you really want..I hope you get to where you want to be..not so sad as you are now ….I am glad you have that place to go to and meet with others..that is great..keep thinking positive thoughts..hope you feel better tomorrow…big hugs..lots of love..Lee 
PS..remember with the depression, etc..you have to constantly be ‘on top’ of it..when it changes..gets worse, etc…and get to the Dr if need be my friend…
Some Xangians left,many.Some, few, are still here.
Hello
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I am waiting . (Remeber that distance or colour does not matter but love matters alot in life) reply me with your email address .
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